A Clusterfuck of Things and Thoughts

I'm not entirely sure of how to start this blog entry. I've already started it about three different ways. What I want to get at, though, is that something got me thinking about how one could look around my room and see so many things that one could learn about me through:

*a small laughing Buddha

*Egyptian gods (Ra, Anubis, Horus...)

*a Zen garden

*a Spanish fan

*Matryoshka doll

*several perfumes

*postcards of movie scenes and actors

*postcards of paintings I've seen in museums

*a poster of a Harry Potter movie

*candles

*a postcard from Patrick Rothfuss, the ridiculously amazing author of the Kingkiller Chronicle (I have this not because I am important, but because he is incredibly nice)

*a porcelain Greek muse

*a music box filled with foreign coins

*a list of movies I need to see

*a small Eiffel tower, a small glass pig made in Murano, a small pen holder in the shape of the Florence cathedral

*two anime action figures (Shikamaru and Itachi from Naruto Shippuden)

Oh, actually... That's just some of what's on my *desk*.

Okay, YES, I seriously need to organize my room, especially my desk, on which there's barely even enough room for my laptop. (Thankfully, it's one of those L-shaped desks, so it's quite spacious for a desk) 

I think it's obvious, though, that I am a woman of many interests. And this list of objects on my desk only covers some of those interests. And I'm finally starting to wonder: And what the fuck is wrong with that?

I've read about all these film directors that spent their childhoods writing scripts and making movies, and it makes me feel a bit like I don't deserve to become a film director. That isn't what my whole life has been about. When I was younger (and for many years) I wanted to be a zoologist. For a very brief moment I wanted to be a chef. Being a travel writer has always been alluring to me, and I will always feel like Psychology and Anthropology are something I would delve into in another life, if I could. So Film isn't my one and only love... But... Is that a bad thing? Isn't an important aspect of Film its versatility? There's all sorts of movies (so many different tones, genres, styles), and nowadays as we get more and more different kinds of media, they all begin to weave and merge more and more with each other. Many TV episodes are as long as feature-length movies, games are striving to become more cinematic and story-driven, and blogs like this one often display and talk about works from all these different forms of media.

I just wish that getting a job that pays enough money for all the ridiculous amount of things we spend money on daily wasn't such a big deal. Or that at least that job didn't take up most of your life. It's such a crappy way to go through life. That's why it's really important to me that I end up having a job that I truly enjoy. Because job = life. At least that's how it seems.

Hm.. I'm about to watch Dollhouse, which I'd been thinking of as a Joss Whedon scifi show about a fictional organization that wipes peoples personalities and memories and programs them to perform some sort of task or fantasy for million-dollar clients.. but now I'm thinking... Allegory?? Hmmmm. Maybe more on this at some other time.